You Want Me to Do What?

This post is written for Five Minute Friday. The word for today is Testimony

            “You need to share your testimony.”  Those words threw me into sheer terror. I wasn’t interested in sharing all the details of my life. My story is not easy because things got messy and my life was threatened more than once. Yet, God was with me through it all. That’s why they said, “You need to share your testimony.”

            I have been through some rough spots so why was my throat dry, my hands clammy and my breathing shallow? Because I am an introvert. No, I’m an extreme introvert. We are often called to share what God does for us, but I’m not going to be the first to volunteer unless everyone in the line I’m standing in takes one step back. Writing my story was different however.

            It all happened in the quiet of my office for over a year. Few people knew what I was working on except my husband, a small writers group and my editor. It was easy. I could do that. I could share my testimony in front of a computer.

            Then, it was time to publish my story. I definitely had second thoughts and the day it published, I came down with an illness that kept me in bed for two weeks. Everything I held in my mind and spirit for so many years was now out in the universe and I collapsed. I never knew I would have such a reaction when I shared my testimony in my memoir.

             I am sure I’m not alone. Many of you may have done the same thing. If so, then you know that sharing your testimony of how God carried you through challenging life experiences, is cathartic. Today I’m grateful. I’m more free to live and breathe because I am no longer a hostage to the words locked inside of me. I finally shared my testimony. I pray it makes a difference in someone’s life.

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9 thoughts on “You Want Me to Do What?

  1. Well done for having the courage to share your testimony! I agree, it is not easy, and I have definitely experienced that same sense horror that it is “out there” after I’ve shared, but it is amazing how God can use our stories to bless others. Visiting from FMF #12.

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    1. Thanks, Lesley. God’s purpose, God’s agenda. 😉

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  2. I’ll be glad to get on stage,
    to talk and joke and play the man,
    fitting well the programme’s page
    but you will not know who I am.
    There are things that I have seen,
    about which I shall not speak,
    that made God seem but a dream,
    and panacea to the weak.
    But in the mass-grave crucible
    there was something to be learned;
    although man’s not beautiful,
    grace can be yet inferred.
    We came, we saw, and did execution;
    justice and forgiveness’ only solution.

    #1 at FMF this week.

    https://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2019/09/your-dying-spouse-668-faith-is-not.html

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  3. Charlotte Saponas September 7, 2019 — 8:15 am

    Your book is wonderful– gentle yet powerful!

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    1. Thank you, Charlotte. Your opinion and review mean so much to me! I’m glad you liked the book. 😉

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  4. What a gift to be given – the chance to share our story. Our testimony. I think we all struggle in some way to share – but isn’t it actually a gift?! So glad you were able to share yours –

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    1. Yes, it is a gift…a total gift of God’s grace alone. 😉

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  5. Trusting in the Holy Spirit’s leading often places us in the most uncomfortable places. For good reason. I remember once thinking about sharing a very difficult piece of my life that was extremely exposing. I felt that I should share about it in front of church (we took turns sharing testimonies) soon. As I thought about it while drying my hair, I heard God say “How about next week?” Well, when we make ourselves available, we better be prepared. So with knees trembling I agreed. And I felt the Spirit’s peace as I talked.

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    1. Thanks for sharing Stephanie. Trust and obey right? 😉

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