Being stuck is part of a writer’s world. I’ve been there more than once but this most recent “stuck place” is about resistance. A writing mentor said that procrastination is really about fear. She then asked, “Why do you write?” Her question and my pondering on what I might be afraid of, prompted me to review the Writers Manifesto I wrote last year based on the Lord’s Prayer. The bold print of that manifesto jumped out at me this morning.
God in Heaven, You are Awesome and Glorious. You are Holy, True and Faithful.
God, Your purpose is to bring Heaven to earth.
You feed those who are hungry for the Bread of Life.
Thank you for your mercy and kindness. You understand when I fall short of my goals.
You forgive me for my lack of focus and fear of failure. Help me to be just as merciful and kind to others and myself Oh, Lord.
Help me to be faithful to You Oh Lord and to the promises in this Manifesto.
What I write and accomplish by Your will is important in advancing Your Kingdom
Because of that, I can expect the enemy to throw darts my way.
Anything the enemy throws in front of me is crushed by your mighty power because YOU are with me and for me.
In confident expectation, I daily bow before You Lord and wait for Your Divine Writing Assignment.
Last night I asked Holy Spirit for direction. This morning, the dam cracked open and God revealed the source of my fear and resistance. As usual, when hard truths are spoken or written, I fear other people’s reaction or response. God says, “Write it anyway.”
I’ve been resisting a project for over six months. I tried to convince myself, or maybe that was a dart from the enemy, that by the time I write the book, it will be old news. God says, “Write it anyway.” Then the debate, “But God, there are probably too many books covering this topic already.” Holy Spirit whispers, “Write it anyway.”
The fear and resistance kept me stuck for over two weeks. Today I am outlining my new project. God is downloading ideas and possibilities and I’m writing again.
Resistance and procrastination are about fear of the results, reactions, and the whole huge mess of it all. Yet, that is what writers do. They write the hard stuff sometimes. They often say things that others won’t. They tell the truth and the truth sets people free.
Why do I write? I want God to use me. I want to be the stroke of the pen in the Master’s Hand. I want to feed those who are hungry for the Bread of Life and advance the Kingdom of God. I want to have the courage, stamina and perseverance to co-labor with God to do the hard thing—I want to bring Heaven to Earth.